Worried...27/02/2010...

Just a concern...

Not supposed lead to another conflict...

Why does this happen ?

Hmm...I cant even give my own an answer...

Hopefully they will settle it and without any bad things happen...

I just only can wish for their safety...

And nothings happen to them...

I already enough for this...

Sorry for those I been making them mad because of me...

Actually I just chat-ing...

Doesn't meant anything...

So don't worried...

Since I got my dear...

I wont do those things to hurt my dear...

Cause she is only one for me...

In this world...

So you have my word...

Hopefully they will understand...

Hmm...What a bored day...

Waking up,online,chatting,and until now...

Late night already...

Still I miss my dear...

Yesterday...We chatted with phones...

So sweet ne dear...^^

My dear...

About those moment...

Already past...

And I dont wanna think about it...

Dar just wanted to hold dear tight...

Give those warming for dear...

And no worries...

Watching sunsets...

And saying...

I love you dear...

And I miss you so much...

I hope my dear happy always...

And she will realize that anythings...

but not without me...

To share together...

Ever since we meet...

In my mind just setting for you...

Everything lies beyond me...

It's doesn't matter because I got you...

I will come for you someday...

I have prepared myself to go through it...

And I will prove to my dear...

That love isn't the things to say yes nor no...

When it's comes...

Then surely will...

And those feeling wont go away as long as you love me...

And I'm only made for you...

My hands is for laying my arms to hold you...

My legs is for finding you...

And my lips is been made for kissing you...

And my heart is made for loving you so...

My dear,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

I will love you always and be by your side...

Whatever dear needed...

I will try to accomplish it...

Even though its hard...

But I will try my best...

Cause it's worth...

For the only dear to me...^^

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

For those moment...25/02/2010...

Hmmm...Those moment together with her...

And the way we was...

And make me feel this way...

How to hold both hands without any doubt together ?

And no others feeling...

Just only wait...

And waited...

And...I really still doubt myself...

I scared I didn't make her happy enough...

And the most important is...

Did I give her the most precious things she wanted ?

Is in my doubt now...

I'm really scared...

And nobody can give me the answers...

Even she tell me...She like everything I have done for her...

But...Did she really like it ? Or maybe because wanted to make me happy ?

And saying those word just for "An Wei" ?

Dear...I not meant to doubt you too...

Now I know what dear scared about le...

Dear also need an quan gan...

And me too...

Dear...I will be waiting...

Even I doubt myself...

And I always think is that I good enough for dear ?

And did I make my dear love me even until cant let me go ?

But still...I will keep on going...

Even I really think that I'm not good enough for dear...

I still will keep on going...

Cause I know one things only...

My heart already given to her...

And she is my true love already...

And I wont give up...

Even little hopes for me...

I will make it big !

And the most dear to me...

Hope she really can see what I'm saying...

And hope my dear can try to knowing me...

I just keep on trying...

No matter how...

I didn't hope like my dear said...

Flower heart...

Would be happen to both us...

I will be hurt alot that time...

I really scared...And lonely...T.T

I wont let her know about this 1st...

Until she saw this...

I'm alone...

In the dark...

Can somebody save me ?

Or given me some light again ?

Haiz...Whatever...

Even sweet2 times will filled with some sadness...

I wonder...when can i get some lights...

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T.T

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

My dear...

I would love you forever and ever...

And wont letting u go away from me...

Even dear sometimes feel down...

I will hug dear...And give dear those dear wanted...

I know dear not very free because need to catch up for study...

Dar knew it...And dar will think over you...

Dear are always on my mind...And dar will always be with you...

Forever and ever...Muacks !

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

True love have been found...24/02/2010...

That day...19/02/2010...

It's started with a "Hello..."...

And we started to chat...

We just know each other that times...

Still...Didn't reveal anything yet...

But on that times...

I felt somethings special within her...

And I felt...I miss her !

She still don't know about this...

So I started to chat with her...

And asking to be friends for 1st steps...

And trying to get her phone number...

She gave me that times...!

I'm so happy that night...

And we started to sms and communicate with her...

Even though we just meet and chat...

For me...I feel it so nice...

After sometimes...

I wanted to tell her...

That I like her...

She feel surprise !

Because we just meet and chat...

But I already like her...

So she feel no protective and not safe...

So I said...I willing to give u those things u needed...

She just...really happy with it !

And she say...

She scared to get hurt...

Everything she scared and needed...

I will give it to her...

She very happy and...

She started to call me dar !

Hees...Makes me feel so sweet too...

And I will make her feel like this too...

So we just go on and on...

Day by day pass...

We felt that we love each others...

Then we started our relationship...

Eventhough just few days...

Some of my friends sure will say that...

This love too earlier...

This love wont forever...

But My "Will" is stronger than those nonsense...

And I will go on with my dear...

Wont let her feel disappointed to me...

Because I choose to love her...Forever...

My dear...Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

I would love you forever and treat you the best from me...

And I will find you...

Wont let dear go on alone...

Dear...I love you so much...! Muacks !

Sweet sweet heart of mine...^^

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Love...23/02/2010...

As the result been waiting...

My dear already accepted me...!

I'm so happy about it...!^^

Ever since again...

My day been lighten...

And the one who give me those shine...

That's her...Regina Law...

My lovely one...

Right now I should announce that "me and her" would becoming couple...

And she is the one I have chosen to be with...4ever...

She really happy tonight...

I really happy to saw her like this...

Cause in my heart...

She the most important...

And the most precious to me...

And I will do whatever it takes to make her happy...

And I would like to spend my times with her...

Forever and ever...

She really make me miss her alot...Hees...^^

She make me feel very warming...

How you think ? A girl give boy warm feelings...

This is really hard to get one...

I'm lucky enough to have her as my dearest...

Even you wanted...also hard to find...

She's mine ad...kakax...^^

She can promise me even bind herself to me...

She...really gorgeous in my heart...

We been together not because of appearances...

It's faith...Binding us together right now...

And thanks to God that give us a chances to meet together...

And I will appreciate Gods help...Amen...

To those who choose to follow their own instinct...

I'm telling ya...You are NON! before her...U know ? Hahax...

Especially written to my Ex...

Make me damn sick alot...

Hate them alot...><

With my dear...

I never afraid for any obstacle that will block us through...

We will holding both hands together and walk through it...

Cause we believe each other and love each others...

So...Even a big obstacles...We can prove ourself...

We can do it ! Isn't it ? My dear ? Hees...

I'm afraid that today was last day to stay near to my dear...

But I didn't regret to be with her...

Because she really treats me the most special among all of my ex...

I just found it around 2 weeks...

Some of my friends said...

There's is no forever things in this world...

Ya...I admit...We also knew it...

But we are trying to get along each other and given each other chances to prove ourself what we can do for each others...

I just asked her...Do you willing to walk this road with me ?

It's hard to go on...as long as dear want too...Dar also will...

Without any considerations...She accept it !

That's make me fall in love to her...My dear...

The one who make me melt...

That's her...Regina...My dearest ever...

Actually...Tonight I just call her...

And we speak together...

And you know what we say ?

That's...Secret ! Hahax...^^

Hmm...Sweet sweet love...My dear...

I hope we can gambateh together until last ya...

Hees...Forever and ever...Muacks !

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Work...20/02/2010...

Lolx...Damn boring...=.=

Working already so cant hang out liao...

Hope my friends can stay contact with me...

Still...don't know when I can take again like this long holidays...

If working in this shops...

We need to prepare many type of self preparations...

Such as Professionalism,Agility and Mind Sets...

So for me...This important things to me...

Those peoples out there really don't know what I'm thinking about...

Cause they didn't even know me...

I'm too complicated they say...

But for me...Felt too easy to knew myself...

Cause I'm simple...

They use to say me so realistic la...

or many reasons...

Later on...they will know why I'm saying this...

Cause they didn't even know the world right now...

They just still in puppy states...

So they knew nothing from me since I'm working ad...

For 1 and half years already...

My thinking maybe more matured...

For me...My states already reaching higher levels...

So...I wont say anythings that make them felt I always wanted to win...

I just wanna someone that can hold me...

Can give me love when I needed...

And I found her...

My dear...

She making me soooo sick for her...

I felt...She really makes me happy...

Better than before...

And I love my dears alot...

I cant even imagine how will going on when futures come...

But I'm sure that I love my dear...

Better than anyone else...

She is...Secret ! Hahax...

She will soon be announce afterward...

Those who knew it already...

Aiya...Please la...Dont talk it out yet...Later lo...hahax...

My jobs sometimes very busy...

So i really felt sorry for my dear sometimes...

but she willing to wait for me...

And surprisingly...

wont even make me feel hard way...

So I would like to spent my times with her more often...

Because I chosen this path...

And i should walk with her...

Go on and on...

Forever...it would be...

I knew that can't even say forever...

But I will try my best...

And she will too...

I believe in her...^^

Thank you my dear...I love you so much...!

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Autocity...19/02/2010...

Tonight hanging out with my friends...

Going to Sing K ! So nice...^^

But until my voice also gone...=.=

But the most important is happy together...^^

So we just sing and sing...

Omg...Autocity Citibox room soooooo cold...=.=

I already freezing there...

But they still can go on...Weird...=.=

So...After done 3 hours non-stop actions...

We hanging around to find places to eat...

We choosing Oldtown...

But already full...=.=

So we choose another one,that is Boston...

My friends going there for 1st times...

So for me already many times le...

With family also...

And with my ex also...

That's already past tense...

Then I escort them going back home safely...

And my own self too...^^

For the last day of entertainment...

Maybe ? Hahax...

So tomorrow started working de...

Soooo tired...=.=

My dear...

And now the most i appreciate is her...

My dear...I really miss my dear...

She nice...very pretty and cute to me...

And I felt that I like her...too much...

But...our distances...Is quiet far away...

I know that Love didn't even count by distances and ages...

So I would like to give the best to it...

She's special to me...

I really don't know how to explain that...

I felt she very good...And maybe my faith ?

I waiting the answer from her...

Still she didn't let me know yet...

Yet,I will be waiting...

For my dear...

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Mois,Penang...18/02/2010...

Tonight hanging out with friends...

We are going to Penang Mois today...

And meet many friends there...

Old friends ofcourse...

Hmm...So complicated here...

After I enter there...

I felt so many girls and boys...

So enjoying...And touching...

Omg...But its ok la...

Cause this for them is normal things...

We just keep dance and dance...

Until all body sweat like bathing...

Lolx...Its too hot inside there...

Cause today also many people's going there for fun...

And also Chinese New Year the 4th day...

So its party times...

And all those who drunk...

Some of them saw her gf been touch by the others...

They gonna get kick butt ! Hahax...

But at least got peacemaker...

The bouncer of the club...

Stopping them...

Its already 2.00 a.m. midnight ad...

All those at stage also drunk already...

Some of their gf also lose control of their mind...

Their gf dance with the other boy...!

That was terrible...

And been touch by other boy also don't know...

And her bf also drunk...so can't protect his gf ad...

So...And so...

My friends also dance with a girl beside them...

And I prefer watching...

Cause...I cant really touch them without their attention...

Or I only touch my gf...

Because that was my style...

So going there just for fun...

And I get a card from the Manager of the Club...

So...at least better than nothing...

My friends keeping telling so good for touching...

I just cant touch them...

Because can prevent many problem...

Better than scared been hit by their bf...

So about the clubbing places...

Not even Mois only...

The other also complicated as I been before...

Same...So just be careful especially girls out there...

And many case also happen their...

Lost virginity...or some sort of bad things....

So this just a advice la...

From the one who experience it...

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Nice Trip...16/02/2010

We started a trip when my friends visit me...

They wanted to visit other friends too...

So I just following them...

Although quiet tired also...

But also go with them...

Then we start to visit my 1st friends...

Same school friends...

And saying "Keong Keong" to Auntie...

We receive Angpao too...^^

For me...I think Ang Pao just for a believe...religion...

So whether got Ang Pao or not...

Also ok with it...

Because the most important is visiting old friends...

And keeping in touch with them...

So they wont forget us...

That's the meaning of Chinese New Year...

So for me...I think like this...

Not same like those who wan Ang Pao for money only...

The meaning is the most important...

Then we inviting other friends to join us at Sunway Carnival...

Join us watching movie lo...

So many peoples at Sunway lo...

Want to buy a ticket also wait long time...=.=

But most of the seats already booked...T.T

But we didn't give up...

Still queue until last...

Then...

We walk away...

Cause all seat taken almost 95% per 1 room...

Even not same schedule also same full...=.=

We visit Winter Warmer for a sip of Coffee...

A nice and warm Aromatic Cappucino warm my heart...

At least recover abit from the last "Battle"...

Then my Mei2 also there...with one of her friends...

Hmm...After watching movie...

All friends already tired...

So they are going back already...

Fetching me back home...

So today the trips already pass...

But I happy with this...

Because better than I at home...

I will bored and thinking many things...

Such as bad things or negative one...

So thanks to them...

Let me not recall about "her"...

A happy day today...^^

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Natural...16/02/2010

Sadness filled me as Memories lies on my heart...

My heart...Cant even let it go away easily...

The moment we have spent together...

And the things that we see together...

Already nothing to her.....

She choosing the way of her own...

She rather prefer friends better than me...

Or maybe Ex-Bf...

I didn't even know what she's thinking...

From the start...

Telling me to re-unite back with her when times come...

And sometimes she said...

She rather go back to her friends there without me...

And sometimes she said...

She need to work and consider rather need me or not...

Day by day pass since she breakup with me...

I still felt that I miss her...

I cant even live without her...

I cant even figure it out what I can do without her...

And...Lastly,I still Love her...

My friends keeping telling to give up everything including this relationship...

And keeping telling me,keeping console me...

They took good care about me...rather her...

She just happy ? Or maybe sad ?

I didn't even knew it...

These day suffered with those emotion...

Cant even ate...

Sleep...

Nor doing everything happily...

Still...My friends keeping telling me cheer up !

Although it been already one week...

I cant sleep yesterday...

until 3.30pm...

And suddenly I felt that she deleting all those memories of ours...

And non left...

I felt my heart...

Broken piece by piece...

Bleeding everywhere...

And say help to my friends...

Nobody answer me since already midnight...

I looking for an angels that can heal my soul...

my heart...

the only one is her...My friends...

Thanks to my lovely friends...

And one or two of them...

Until last...

I already cant sleep...

I just msg her at FB...

And please end my suffer from this...

I want an answer...

She said that...

Let it natural...

And the most important...

I cant even give her protections...

Respect too...

I was correcting her wrong way of though...

But she prefer me didn't respect her...

And already given all up to her...

She prefer me didn't give her protection...

I...really didn't have idea...

Lastly...

I would confirm that...

She's already gone...

Leave me alone in the dark...

And saying "are you a man ?"...

Yes...I'm not a man without a woman...

She said that she prefer her exbf than me...

Because her exbf can give her protections...

Respect...

I...prefer losing her better than losing myself...

She chosen her path...

Then I also will go through my way...

Our path is not belong to each other...

Or maybe later meet...Also cant even expected...

So I also prefer Natural...

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...