Natural...16/02/2010
Sadness filled me as Memories lies on my heart...
My heart...Cant even let it go away easily...
The moment we have spent together...
And the things that we see together...
Already nothing to her.....
She choosing the way of her own...
She rather prefer friends better than me...
Or maybe Ex-Bf...
I didn't even know what she's thinking...
From the start...
Telling me to re-unite back with her when times come...
And sometimes she said...
She rather go back to her friends there without me...
And sometimes she said...
She need to work and consider rather need me or not...
Day by day pass since she breakup with me...
I still felt that I miss her...
I cant even live without her...
I cant even figure it out what I can do without her...
And...Lastly,I still Love her...
My friends keeping telling to give up everything including this relationship...
And keeping telling me,keeping console me...
They took good care about me...rather her...
She just happy ? Or maybe sad ?
I didn't even knew it...
These day suffered with those emotion...
Cant even ate...
Sleep...
Nor doing everything happily...
Still...My friends keeping telling me cheer up !
Although it been already one week...
I cant sleep yesterday...
until 3.30pm...
And suddenly I felt that she deleting all those memories of ours...
And non left...
I felt my heart...
Broken piece by piece...
Bleeding everywhere...
And say help to my friends...
Nobody answer me since already midnight...
I looking for an angels that can heal my soul...
my heart...
the only one is her...My friends...
Thanks to my lovely friends...
And one or two of them...
Until last...
I already cant sleep...
I just msg her at FB...
And please end my suffer from this...
I want an answer...
She said that...
Let it natural...
And the most important...
I cant even give her protections...
Respect too...
I was correcting her wrong way of though...
But she prefer me didn't respect her...
And already given all up to her...
She prefer me didn't give her protection...
I...really didn't have idea...
Lastly...
I would confirm that...
She's already gone...
Leave me alone in the dark...
And saying "are you a man ?"...
Yes...I'm not a man without a woman...
She said that she prefer her exbf than me...
Because her exbf can give her protections...
Respect...
I...prefer losing her better than losing myself...
She chosen her path...
Then I also will go through my way...
Our path is not belong to each other...
Or maybe later meet...Also cant even expected...
So I also prefer Natural...
