'Regina' 's KC

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Relationships ain't easy...27/09/2010...

Couple...
It's ain't easy to maintain the relationships...
But it's easy to breakup...
The most important...
Don't so easily to mentions about breakup...
It's hurt and yet really hard to accept the fact of it...
As we saw so many couples...
I wonder how they maintain their relationships so long ?
Feelings ? Loves ? Or even Money ?
I just felt...The most important...I love her,And she love me too...
That's enough for me...
Didn't hope more.....That's the way I in love...

Don't know why...

Seem something disturbing in me...

I felt I always thinking and thinking...

Just like girls...

Maybe...

Because I afraid...

I had been through so many relationship and yet...

What do I gain ?

I just hope I want a perfect one...

That she doesn't care about this world...

But just care about me...

And I will too...

But this not supposed to be like that...

Because this couldn't be happening in my life...

I think I'm not that lucky maybe...

I just want a stable relationships...

A lovely wife...

That she just love me...

She won't changes her mind when meet so many peoples out there...

That is the thing I most afraid of it...

I can't accept the fact if I heard about this again...

I think I will suicide...Maybe...

This really make me so sicks...

I nearly suicide myself ad...last time...

Last battle...make me even more tired and doesn't hope anymore on next relationship...

Luckily...I found her...

At least...She makes me felt safe...

I don't know why...

I afraid sometimes...

She is pretty and cute...for me and everyone outside...

Of course...She got so many choices...than me...

Maybe later on...

She found someone more good than me ?

No more negative thinking and more matured ?

And can give her more safety feeling and warm ?

Or happiness ?

This always keep telling me in my mind...

The more I love her...

The more those mind keep telling me about this...

But I felt I believe in her...

I don't know why...

She got something that can make me believe in what she said...

That's doesn't mean that you have opportunity to do another things when I not there with you and don't know what's happening...

I just hope that...

You could heard my words...

I called you don't to do such a things...

Or don't going out with someone else...

Then you obey it...

And you called me to do so...

I will do it too...

Dar didn't hope any lies within our relationships...

My mind keep telling me...

Sometimes I feel that she doing something ?

Going somewhere didn't told me ?

Doing what ?

With who ?

I very very afraid...T.T

That someday she will found another one...

Then she decided don't want me...

Dear...I know my negative thinking can't even stopped ad...

But I just cant stop to think about it...

I'm sorry...

I also hope that I would believe in you and no worries...

But if I won't worried about you...

I think it's already not me...

I'm not myself already...

If I'm still myself...

Then I know my feeling toward you...

I'm treasuring you...

And I really hope you feel that...

Dar really can't even losing you right now...and future too...

I really loves you...

This isn't kidding...

I'm serious about you...

And I'm proud that I could be with you my dear...

I know tonight dear will said that I didn't heard what dear said...

Late sleep again...^^

But Dar can't sleep if didn't write this all onto this blog...

I need to express it...

If not I will insane...

Hope that dear will felt whatever I had said here is real...

And hope dear will understand me more...

I'm sorry if I got make dear moody sometimes...

Dar sometimes moody when at work gea...

Cause sometimes tensions...

Dar already get hold by myself so long time...

But still got somethings that can make me moody too...

I'm sorry dear last time I look like so rude to dear...

I hope dear will forgive me...

I will try my best not to and be the only best Dar in your heart...

And be the last one and forever the last dar for you...

I love you...Regina...

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Friday, September 17, 2010

17/09/2010...11:00p.m...

Lolx...Felt kinda weird...=.="...

Hmm...Firstly...

I just wanna share something with my dear na...

Actually it's about "Dao Li"...

Kinda weird if somebody said something like this...

Here got two person...

A and B...

A gea sitting down there playing computer...

And B also the same...

Ok...Then dar just walk to refrigerators to take dar gea beverage...

Then when taken and going outside...

Someone had said...That B gea...

Said that,"Hey ! Ah A...He takes your beverages..."

Lolx...Actually dar brought that beverages gea...

that B just came back from somewhere else...

Didn't even know anything...

Dar didn't guai her...

Dar just felt...

Doesn't she felt it's rude ?

Then ok...Ah A said to Ah B...

"That's not mine gea la..."

Then Ah B laugh and ask dar is that mine or not...

Then dar just reply...

"If not who gea ? Lolx..."

Then she said that she...

"Oh...I taken your 1 bottle and drink ad..."

Dar just said...Just take it...

Dear...Actually...It's kind rude to ask something from someone...

And that Ah B actually it's quiet like princess type...

Actually...dar not angry or anything...

Just wanted to let dear understand somethings about "Dao Li"...

And the most important in here...

Dar don't like the way she act...

She felt like a princess...

Everyone should "zhao kui"...

Omg...Even dar not her bf also need to "zhao kui"...

So dear ar...be matured like you more better than her many times lo...

I felt dou you much more better and is the one I seek so long time le...

So dar felt very lucky and happy that dar found you...

Dar really proud of you na...^^

And then I go out to shop le...

When dar want go to toilet again...

saw her again...

She said..."If I want have somemore ?"

Dar just replied..."Take it la..."

Lolx...Kinda weird...

Princess type that always called everybody to treat her...

Not only drinks...everythings...

I have no comment on her...

I just felt I wont like someone like her gea...

Ofcourse...call me to love her ? I better jump off seas...

If someone call me to love dear...Ofcourse...

I will...And I do...^^

Testing...17/09/2010...11:20p.m...

Dear ar...

Actually last time dear said about Helena gea...

Dar didn't blame her because she said rude word to dar...

Just blame dar only...

Dar late reply you because of in hurry...

From that start...it's like this...

Dar wake abit more late at morning...

And dar didn't even have time to waste...

So dar need to rush to bath and preparing everythings...

To drive motor le...

I'm sorry that making dear worried and waiting dar gea msg...

Actually dar not intentionally gea...

Hope dear will forgive dar na...

Dar promise...

Even how busy dar is...

Dar will reply dear xin...

Ok ma ? Dar not tension on this...

Cause I know if late reply dear will worried...

Maybe will think negative...

What dar had happen ?

What dar doing ?

Dar got anything happen ma ?

So dar understand gea...

Dear ar...Actually that time dar didn't even think to test dear ar...

I felt weird that dear said dar wanna try to testing dear see...

Dar didn't do like that na...

I'm sorry o dear...

I hope dear will forgive me na...

I love you...

Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Friday, September 10, 2010

I'm sorry dear...11/09/2010...

Dear...Lately dar making dear angry and sad na...

I'm sorry and dar not intentionally gea...

Dar just keep worrying on something and making we like this...

I hope this would end...

No more about quarrel...

Just wanna be the most sweet dar ever to you...

Because...If dar just normal to you...

Sure later our love will dan jor...

And dear will find another one if dar treat you normally...

So dar will gambateh...to be the best in your heart...

And to be the one that no one can ever replaces me in your heart...

Dear...I'm sorry and now on I hope we two will even more sweet na...

Don't because small small things...

Making both of us sad na...

Ok ma ? I know it's my fault that making those quarrel...

But I wanna let dear prepare too...

That is if small things...

Just make it easily...ok ma ? ^^

Dear ar...

I really hope that I don't want heard about that boy gea things...

Cause make me felt sad and angry...

Hopefully from today start...

No more of him in our life...

It's not worth to say something about him then making us like this na...

U know what I mean gea right ?

So we gambateh na...

About me gea...Her gea...

I also didn't say anything about her le...

Because I know that If say more...

More sad and angry...And maybe will make us quarrel again...

So dar will deleted it ad...

U know ma ? After last time told you about her...

Then that day dar ad deleted everything about her le...

Because I want you...

Not her...So i don't want anything that would block me to get you...

That's my style...^^

Dear...

Lately u late sleep na...

Dar actually quiet xam tong gea...

I want you sleep earlier...

Just like dar too...

But nvm gea...

I know it's not everyday...

If everyday...

Dear u wait me awhile at Ipoh...

I will come back and hit your pet pet le...><

Kakax...I love the way I hit your pet pet...

Dear not Irongul...So it's soft gea...^^

Hahahahahax...Love u so muchie ! Muackx !!!

Dear...about the past of u and me...

Let's us deleted it...Ok ma ?

Our love story more important than those past...

So don't mentions about it le...

Let it go...and we talk about future...

Not going back to past future...Ok ma ?

Dar in heart...

I can swear that...

I love the only you...

And wanted to be the one to you too...

Dar promise you gea things...

Dar wont ever compromise again...

Because dar just love the only you...

And wanna do everything just for you...

Hope dear would happy to heard about this...

Cause you are the most special in my heart...

Dear don't doubt me next time le gua...^^

Hope dear will trust my words here...

I love you...Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...

Monday, September 6, 2010

Tired tired tired !!! 07/09/2010...

Lately always working hard...

And felt kinda tired myself...

I wondering what I had gain at the end ?

When I always fight so hard...

I felt it empty...

but...

at least I known that why I work so hard for my jobs...

because of her...

I wanna work hard...

Gain more money...

To go to meet her...

Buy her gift or present...

And surely stored for Marriage in our future...

I will try and fight even more harder...

I know this kinda tired and stress...

But at least got her in my life...

That's nothing to be regret of...

And I felt really happy everytime she SMS to me...

Eventhough it's just abit fu hin me...

But I felt nice and sweet...

Cause it's send by you...

I love you dear...^^

I hope that dear would come along and live with me...

If she can...I hope I can live together with her...

I don't know why...I just felt I wanna be with her closer...

And can help her when she needed...

I can be by her side when she needed me...

And always be there for you...

I don't know when...

But I hope my wish will come true one day...

Cause I wanna have a sweet night with dear...

Hahax...but don't think too much ya...

Just sleeping with dear and hugging together only...

Don't think something nasty or pervert ya...hahahahax...^^

Dear...

U know ma ?

When u sms me when I was edging...

I felt evergize everytime dear send a sms to me...

And felt really stronger than before...

At least still got you in my life...

If not I'm gonna give it up ad...

But everytime I doing something also think about you...

Luckily have you...My lovely one...^^

Dear...I love you...

To : Regina Law Jiun Yeen

From : KC Chew Fu Rong

I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...