Wednesday, March 23, 2011
MANY THINGS HAD HAPPENED LATELY...24/03/2011...
Many things had happened...
Actually just a simple misunderstanding around my lovely dear and that ex...
But even how...I just know...I can't blame anyone in this...
Cause even how...I know everyone also got their wrong...Include me...
I know...I mustn't cry that night...
But you know ? When I talk with you...that pi qi...Really familiar with last time...
Last time dar come back to wan hui dear time...Really felt same...
That's y...Dar really scare to lose you again...
And many things I have said...
To hope for peace...
And I also hope everyone alright too...
Cause I didn't expect to be like this serious...
Maybe I should write here...
And if she calm down time...
She can know my feeling here...
It's not because I weak or easily get bullied...
Is dar another reason for this...
Dar cry because of scare dear will repeat the step again...Like last time...
Eventhough dar very trust you indeed...But dar will scare too...
Scare sometimes not enough good or perfect to dear...
Dar didn't down...Dar already gambateh and do my best...
Hope dear dear felt it too...
Hope one dar when dear living with dar...
Surely will know why dar life more slow...
And maybe will let dear know why dar prefer peace...
Cause dar mommy also said...
Dar not really have much friends only...
And Dar gea friends wont stand at dar side even how dar treat them the best...
This dar already fu chu give my friends in my classmate gea...
Not those 4 people and that ex too...
It's my classmate gea...
Actually dar not really remember cause it's long time le...
Already 4 years...they still like thorn yet...didn't even recovered since times go...
Actually Dar just been betray by them...
That time dar fight back...
Just like dear and dar right now...wanted to fight back...
But why dar prefer peace ?
Cause dar know...Peace...
At least can protect dou dear...They wont go down find dear...
And many things also can prevent...
Eventhough dar know no more friends for them...
But dar just want all in silent...
No more after yesterday night...23/03/2011...
My mommy also said dar correctly...
Dar also liu gai...
And sister too...Because they care dar...
And dar also choose to face this...didn't run away from it...
Even they tell daddy mommy...
My families will help the one right in this matter...
My families said...Actually in this 3 person...
My son are not really good handling in love matter...
And makes many people gam suffer...
And makes today gea problem...
So dar Families got said...
Actually today at least...
We can settle le tonight...
Then there wouldn't be more like this again...
Dar before...also got fight back...
But what dar get ?
Dar only get back is been look down by them and said dar bad...
All dar gea is bad for them all...
That's y...dar didn't have any trusted same sex gea friends...
Means male gea friends...cause most of them not matured...
And that's y dar prefer to peace after that time le...
Cause no more supporter and any friends to support le...
What can dar do ?
Dar also think...maybe this is dar gea life...
And dar only can speak with my classmate gea girl only...
only other sex can only...
Dar dont know why can...
But maybe dar can speak to them more better than those boys...
Cause dar said abit sure they will fan dui or block gea...
I don't know why...
Maybe just like my schoolmates said...Jocelyn...
She said I'm Xiao Chao...Means School gea Handsome Boy...
And they envy ?
Or what ?
Dar also didn't find dou answer...
But dar just know that time sure dear will laugh if dear saw dar gea face...
Cause really really like small kid la...=.="
zha dou...
And ok lo...dar also go on...
Without any boy gea friends...and just only some girl gea friends...
until now...dar also same...Dear didn't felt why dar always go out with girls gea ?
Dear don't need to jealous...
Actually dar know dear will jealous...But dar have to said the truth here...
Dar just treat them as friends...at least matured one...they won't so aggressive like boys...
Talk something no syok jau want fight la...
Bully la...or whatever lo...
Dear can said dar gea heart...weak or what...
But dear have chosen to be with dar...
And dear have to accept it too...
Cause even how hard dar change myself just for you...
Dar know...Dar will sometimes go back to my former self too...
cause it's hard to change especially xing ge...
Dar also chosen to believe and accept all dear weakness and advantage...
Cause dar know...in this world...there are not such perfect things in this world...
But we can do is...We do as perfect as we can...
Even can't get 100%..but at least already reach 50% better than anyone else didn't try...
And dar always believe in dear...Didn't even doubt dear once...until now le...
Dar also believe in this matter...dear not the one should be cry and not the one should be their target to said...
If can...Dar rather get hit by their shoot...
If they use wood stick to hit dear...Dar will help block them...
If they use gun...Dar will risk my life to protect dear...
Cause I know...dear are qing bai de,..
And Because I love you...
I would rather died for you...
Let's this be the last matter...
and about them all...And ex...
Don't ever influence both of us again in our life...
Dar just hope to live with dear...
Without any argue and any misunderstanding again...
Dar will do more better than last time...
Mommy said dar not really good in handling this love matter...
And dar will did my best...to show to mommy and dear too...
Hope dear will felt it...And dar apologize cause dar makes dear cry...
All the best...From KC...
I loved you forever,Regina Law Jiun Yeen...
